"The pharmacist said klonopin, lamictil, lithium, Xanax
The doctor said an antipsychotic might help me forget what the trauma said
The trauma said don’t write this poem
Nobody wants to hear you cry about the grief inside your bones"
"It’s three a.m.
the emergency room psychiatrist looks up from his clipboard
with eyes paid to care
and asks me if I see people who aren’t really there
I say, “I see people…
how the hell am I supposed to know
if they’re real or not?”
He doesn’t laugh
neither do I.
The math’s not on my side
ten stitches and one lie..
I swear i wasn’t trying to die
I just wanted to see what my pulse looked like from the inside."